Tonight I cried over dirty dish rags and a nearly empty Brita water container in my fridge. Also, gagged twice while washing my dogs slimy water and food bowls and then got pissed off that I nearly gagged.
It's starting to sink in.
Also, I had worse-than-period-cramp cramps tonight. Scared the shit out of me.
Luckily they only lasted about 2 hours or so and then subsided almost as fast as they came on.
Thank you, Lord.
Thursday, May 28, 2015
8DP5DT
Cats outta the bag!
I've known since Monday but didn't want to tell anyone just yet. I'm still trying to take it all in, myself. It doesn't feel real at all, and I feel like it could all come crashing down at any moment. It's an absolutely horrible feeling. Now is a time when I should be nothing but excited and instead I'm about 20% excited and about 80% terrified.
Right now I'm living day by day and trying to come to terms with the fact that this might actually be real this time. I have a huge guarding wall I need to begin taking down but brick by brick, I'll get there. Maybe I'll feel better if I can make to my ultrasound in two weeks and actually see little 5ab on the screen. Or maybe it won't be until I make it to 12 weeks or 28 weeks. Who knows? Right now, it's just hour by hour for me.
Right now I'm living day by day and trying to come to terms with the fact that this might actually be real this time. I have a huge guarding wall I need to begin taking down but brick by brick, I'll get there. Maybe I'll feel better if I can make to my ultrasound in two weeks and actually see little 5ab on the screen. Or maybe it won't be until I make it to 12 weeks or 28 weeks. Who knows? Right now, it's just hour by hour for me.
My mantra: Today, I am pregnant.
In the mean time, I will test every day to make sure my test line is darkening like it should be. Hopefully in the the next day or 2 my test line will be as dark and thick as the control line. I know that will definitely ease my mind and bring some sanity back into me.
How I'm feeling?
4 weeks pregnant! I have my typical off and on again dull, annoying headaches periodically throughout the day- same as before when I was pregnant. This time though, I have been crampy and extremely bloated which can also be a side effect from the progesterone or perhaps the pregnancy. The cramps were so bad last night that it actually woke me up in the middle of the night. The whole episode only lasted about a minute though, so I didn't give it much thought. The cramps feel almost identical to period cramps but more of a pinching feeling, than a dull ache. OH!! And this morning I nearly gagged when handling raw, gooey chicken, and a the consistency of grated Parmesan cheese, and at the smell of the cleaning lady's perfume mixed with the small of the pine sol/bleach water mop bucket she was carrying with her.
I read conflicting articles once that said one doesn't get morning sickness until her betas are at least 3,000 or more and another one that read morning sickness doesn't mean that your betas have to be high, only that it's increasing quickly and that the sudden increase of it is what causes nausea.
Regardless of what I or anyone else believes to be correct, I was for damn sure ill this morning. Which I am forever grateful of!
Thursday, May 21, 2015
1DP5DT
1 day past 5 day transfer.
It's so crazy to say that out loud. I cannot believe how far we've come!
My "symptoms" (which are probably, mostly in my head)
What's 5ab up to today?
It's so crazy to say that out loud. I cannot believe how far we've come!
My "symptoms" (which are probably, mostly in my head)
- Slight uterine 'sensations.' I can't even call them cramps, because they don't hurt. I just feel twinges and light taps and thumps from time to time.
- Sleepy. Like, can barely hold my eyes open and want to face-plant into this giant stack of papers on my desk kind of sleepy.
What's 5ab up to today?
- At 1 day post transfer, he is still floating around and hatching out of his tiny little, protective shell.
Baby on Board!!
The transfer yesterday was a wonderful success!
I arrived 15 minutes before my scheduled appointment at 12:45. At 1:10, my bladder felt like it was about to burst so I checked with the desk attendant and asked how much longer. She said they would be calling me back in a few minutes.
FINALLY Dr. Winslow called us back. He took both of us to his office and told us that he thawed 1 embryo which survived and even grew from a 4ab to a 5ab which means it started to hatch!!!! I'm so proud of our little trooper frosty :) He referred to it as perfect several times before also reminding us of the 1 remaining embryo on ice. He then walked us both back out to the waiting room where we parted ways. Barry stayed put, and I was greeted by my favorite nurse to the other side of the 9th floor where the procedure rooms and embryology labs are located. Once there, I was instructed to undress and put on the gown with the opening to the back, the purple hospital, grippy socks, and the pretty blue hair net. It was a lot like the retrieval protocol.
When I finished, she guided me into the transfer room, which was much bigger and not as scary as the retrieval room. I laid back on the bed and she performed an ultrasound which showed my uncomfortably full bladder. She said it was too full though and had me partially empty it for 9 seconds. Then I laid back on the table, she reexamined it and said it looked great. We talked babies and IVF for another 10 minutes before Dr. Winslow finally made his appearance. Once he arrived, she briskly put the ultrasound monitor to my belly to show him my bladder.
Dr.: "Oh honey!! Go partially empty that thing again!! That looks painful! To my surprise, it was giant again! So I hopped down off the table and ran back to the bathroom again. I was so scared of emptying too much that I barely let any out and made my way back to the bed. Luckily, after the third peak at my bladder, they said it would work however, you can tell in my picture it's still huge! haha!!
I've included two photos of the transfer. One clean, and one with some explanation.
I arrived 15 minutes before my scheduled appointment at 12:45. At 1:10, my bladder felt like it was about to burst so I checked with the desk attendant and asked how much longer. She said they would be calling me back in a few minutes.
FINALLY Dr. Winslow called us back. He took both of us to his office and told us that he thawed 1 embryo which survived and even grew from a 4ab to a 5ab which means it started to hatch!!!! I'm so proud of our little trooper frosty :) He referred to it as perfect several times before also reminding us of the 1 remaining embryo on ice. He then walked us both back out to the waiting room where we parted ways. Barry stayed put, and I was greeted by my favorite nurse to the other side of the 9th floor where the procedure rooms and embryology labs are located. Once there, I was instructed to undress and put on the gown with the opening to the back, the purple hospital, grippy socks, and the pretty blue hair net. It was a lot like the retrieval protocol.
When I finished, she guided me into the transfer room, which was much bigger and not as scary as the retrieval room. I laid back on the bed and she performed an ultrasound which showed my uncomfortably full bladder. She said it was too full though and had me partially empty it for 9 seconds. Then I laid back on the table, she reexamined it and said it looked great. We talked babies and IVF for another 10 minutes before Dr. Winslow finally made his appearance. Once he arrived, she briskly put the ultrasound monitor to my belly to show him my bladder.
Dr.: "Oh honey!! Go partially empty that thing again!! That looks painful! To my surprise, it was giant again! So I hopped down off the table and ran back to the bathroom again. I was so scared of emptying too much that I barely let any out and made my way back to the bed. Luckily, after the third peak at my bladder, they said it would work however, you can tell in my picture it's still huge! haha!!
I've included two photos of the transfer. One clean, and one with some explanation.
The transfer, although a little uncomfortable, wasn't all that painful. It was more awkward than anything else since I was laying there totally bare ass and opened for the world to see with all kinds of shit going in and coming out from between my legs. After putting the catheter in, they turned the screen to me so that I could see what they were seeing. After Dr Winslow situated the catheter's depth by hand via ultrasound guidance, and my sweet nurse situating it even further by pressing down on my belly, they had it exactly where they wanted it and called the embryologist in. A few moments later, I saw the fluid containing my embryo enter my uterus. On the screen it looked like a white shooting star against a night sky. It was the most amazing thing to witness, emotion to feel, and event to experience. The whole thing was just surreal. And alas, I was am pregnant until proven otherwise.
Afterwards the Doctor hugged me and told me he hopes this works for us and the nurse went over the instructions for the next few days for me to follow before sending me out to the waiting room to meet back up with Barry.
I was so excited to show him the photos of our little baby!
I will never forget those few seconds together, standing there outside of the office, in front of the elevators, both of us gleaming down at the freshly printed pictures. That moment we shared together will always be dear to my heart. As will the catching of a very rare glimpse of Barry wiping his eyes when we boarded the elevator.
After the transfer, we went home, watched Game of Thrones and then went and walked around the mall a bit. Dr. Winslow said that new studies show its actually better to be a little active after the transfer because it promotes blood flow to the uterus and good circulation within it. On the way home we stopped at Chipotle for dinner which I was promised by Barry we would do weeks ago when we ate there.
And I couldn't tell you why, but that night, I slept deeper and more peacefully than I have in a long time.
Oh and this is a progress picture of our embryo.
note: this is not a picture of our embryo but this photo does accurately describe what ours looks like based on it's grade and age.)
4ab
5ab
Monday, May 18, 2015
Shit My Husband Says- II
Typical Sunday afternoon chores: empty the fridge, wash the dishes, take trash out to the street.
Me: standing at the sink washing dishes. Barry: yells from across the house,
"Is this your pee stick in my trash can?
I yell back, "What? NO!"
Enter Barry holding out trash can for me to look inside only to discover it is in fact one of my pee sticks.
Me- "NO!!! That's not mine!"
Barry- (flamboyantly) "oh well then; it must be mine.. My bad...."(walks away with trash can.)
Me: standing at the sink washing dishes. Barry: yells from across the house,
"Is this your pee stick in my trash can?
I yell back, "What? NO!"
Enter Barry holding out trash can for me to look inside only to discover it is in fact one of my pee sticks.
Me- "NO!!! That's not mine!"
Barry- (flamboyantly) "oh well then; it must be mine.. My bad...."(walks away with trash can.)
hormone agenda
My husband suprised me today at lunch time.
What a sweetheart.
Seriously, I don't know if it's just the hormones, or the fact that last week I avoided what would have been a horrible car accident on the freeway, but lately I've been feeling so overwhelmingly in love with him. Like, more than usual, and probably more than what would be considered normal. I'm probably pushing the limit to obsession. I literally don't want to let him out of my sight. I wish I could grind myself up into tiny granules the size of salt and sprinkle myself over his dinner for him to consume and that way I'd always be with him.
I'm sure it's just the hormones.
I feel like I'm on the verge of exploding with the Love.
I want to hold him and never let him go.
What a sweetheart.
Seriously, I don't know if it's just the hormones, or the fact that last week I avoided what would have been a horrible car accident on the freeway, but lately I've been feeling so overwhelmingly in love with him. Like, more than usual, and probably more than what would be considered normal. I'm probably pushing the limit to obsession. I literally don't want to let him out of my sight. I wish I could grind myself up into tiny granules the size of salt and sprinkle myself over his dinner for him to consume and that way I'd always be with him.
I told you.
It's getting weird, even for me.
I'm sure it's just the hormones.
I feel like I'm on the verge of exploding with the Love.
I want to hold him and never let him go.
The Joys of Progesterone
This morning when I initially got up to the hit the snooze button on my alarm clock I noticed my chest was a little tender. The second time my alarm sounded and I got up to turn it off, I did a feel-around and I realized just how sore they really were. I've been taking the progesterone suppositories twice a day for 4 days now and up until this morning I hadn't a felt a single side effect from it, so I was pretty excited to finally feel it working! That is, until now... They are growing more and more sore by the hour, it feels like.
Don't get me wrong, I'm NOT complaining.. I'm just remembering howsore PAINFUL they were right before my last scheduled transfer and I was only taking it once a day and now I'm taking it twice a day! It won't be long before I'll have to hold onto them upon exiting the bed every morning and avoid potholes in the road like my life depends on it. HA!!!
Heaven forbid this round doesn't work, but the next time around, I'm requesting the progesterone shots versus the suppository.
Progesterone in Oil shot (PIO):
Intramuscular shot (meaning 1.5 inch long, 22-gauge needle in the ass)
The medicine is mixed in sesame oil, which is very thick, so it not only hurts really bad going in, but it also can leave big, painful lumps and bumps under the skin at the injection sites.
Costs around $84/week (x8 weeks $672)
Crinone (Vaginal Gel Suppository)
Quick, painless, tampon insertion-like application.
Can cause cervical irritation, cramps, and spotting.
Neither one or the other is considered to be more effective, my doctor just chose to prescribe Crinone because too many of his patients were having problems with developing large, painful, cystic-type lumps in their asses from the daily PIO shots. I'd rather take my chances with the far less expensive shot though. The nightly "Crinone-cleaning" is fucking gross.
So, now that you know more than you probably wanted to...
Other than the sore chest and off and on cramps, I still feel pretty normal.
Don't get me wrong, I'm NOT complaining.. I'm just remembering how
Heaven forbid this round doesn't work, but the next time around, I'm requesting the progesterone shots versus the suppository.
Progesterone in Oil shot (PIO):
Intramuscular shot (meaning 1.5 inch long, 22-gauge needle in the ass)
The medicine is mixed in sesame oil, which is very thick, so it not only hurts really bad going in, but it also can leave big, painful lumps and bumps under the skin at the injection sites.
Costs around $84/week (x8 weeks $672)
Crinone (Vaginal Gel Suppository)
Quick, painless, tampon insertion-like application.
Can cause cervical irritation, cramps, and spotting.
Once inserted, the body absorbs the medicine within the gel, but the gel remains, dries into small/large white clumps and must be manually cleaned out every night in the shower to prevent a large build up. Yea.... Lovely.
Costs around $160/week (x8 weeks $1280)
Neither one or the other is considered to be more effective, my doctor just chose to prescribe Crinone because too many of his patients were having problems with developing large, painful, cystic-type lumps in their asses from the daily PIO shots. I'd rather take my chances with the far less expensive shot though. The nightly "Crinone-cleaning" is fucking gross.
So, now that you know more than you probably wanted to...
Other than the sore chest and off and on cramps, I still feel pretty normal.
Friday, May 15, 2015
with any luck...
I just realized that, assuming my little snow baby implants and decides to stay, we'll have a due date of the 2/4/16, which when read aloud, sounds close to 2,4,6.
I know it's lame, but I like it. It has a nice ring to it.
Due date calculations are a little different for people that have undergone fertility treatments. Normally you'd calculate the date by the first day of a woman's last period or the day she ovulated. So for instance, if you got your period on January 1st, typically you'd ovulate about 14 days later, January 14, and then start your period January 28th. All of that is assuming you have a "normal," 28 day cycle. So by the first day of your missed period, in this case, Jan 28th, you're already considered 4 weeks pregnant.
Using that Math, I'm technically already 2 weeks pregnant today. I know that probably sounds a little like I'm counting my chicken before it's hatched, but in reality I'm just trying to remain as positive as possible. And if that means pretending like I'm already pregnant, then fine!!
To calculate my due date, I have to go by the day of my transfer (may 20th) and use the the age of the embryo I'm transferring, which is 5 days old.
Here is the website I used if your interested:
http://www.ivfconnections.com/forums/content.php/749-IVF-Due-Date-Calculator-by-Date-of-Transfer-Retrieval-Ovulation-or-Insemination
Besides all of this fun stuff, I'm starting to get excited again. Ever since I started getting symptoms of OHSS, my thoughts have been inundated with negativity. I feel like my head and my heart are in a constant bloody battle of deliberations and I'm not even sure who I'm rooting for anymore. Even after learning that our FET was scheduled, my mind has felt trapped in an unexplored land of limbo. But since my appointment yesterday and having introduced more medicine into my my daily concoction this morning, my gloomy little spirit is becoming more zen. And it's radiating I tell ya!
Thursday, May 14, 2015
"Thundercats are go!"
Stay tuned for another episode of: Shit My Husband Says, at the end of this post.
Okay..
So the appointment went really well aside from having to sit in the waiting room for 40 minutes before being seen. But I guess that's not really anything new. My doctor performed the ultrasound and told me that my ovaries looked nice and quiet and my lining was measuring 9mm's thick.
(remember, it needs to be at least 7mm)
He then asked Barry and I how many embryos we planned to transfer to which we each replied, "uhhhhhhhhhh."
After glancing over at one another, we simultaneously agreed aloud on, "1."
This is a conversation that the nurses and doctors all try to get couples to discuss at the beginning of IVF so that there is a mutual agreement by the time of transfer. Barry and I however, agreed long before even officially beginning IVF, that we would transfer 2, only to be told at our first consultation that because of my size, doctor Winslow would only feel comfortable transferring 1 at a time. His argument was that I don't seem to have too hard of a time getting pregnant (yea right), they just always implanted in the wrong place. That, and the smaller a women is, the higher the chance of complications with multiple gestations. Having been told this from day one, we've both been under the presumption that we were only going to transfer 1. So I can only assume that's why the number '1' slipped out of both of our mouths. Too bad we probably looked like we had never even given it a second thought though. I hate appearing unorganized or unprepared.
Part of me wants to give us the highest chance possible for a positive outcome this go around, so I want to transfer 2! But if my body isn't ready for pregnancy this time, it could very well reject both embryos and then we are out... The End. Game Over. If we just transfer 1 for right now and things don't work out this time, at least we can make whatever changes in protocol we need for the next time around, and we can try 1 more time. And just having that as an option could make a world of difference emotionally healing from a failed cycle and trying to move forward.
HOPEFULLY we won't have to worry about any of that though. But I'm glad we have a "backup plan" in place for ourselves. Even if it's more of just a "feel good plan" since I know it will probably be a couple of years until we could afford another transfer.
Any who.. the doctor told me to stay on the Estrace (3 in the morning and 3 more at night) every day. Tomorrow I will begin my morning/nightly dose of Progesterone Gel suppositories and my antibiotics to prevent me from catching anything during or after the transfer which is scheduled for next Wednesday May 20th at 1pm.
After the appointment we hit up chickfila for breakfast before returning to work.
While we were in line, I made the comment to Barry how I'd like to go get something really good to eat after the transfer. He agreed and also made mention that we should plan our first little outing as a family. He said,
I died.
Okay..
So the appointment went really well aside from having to sit in the waiting room for 40 minutes before being seen. But I guess that's not really anything new. My doctor performed the ultrasound and told me that my ovaries looked nice and quiet and my lining was measuring 9mm's thick.
(remember, it needs to be at least 7mm)
He then asked Barry and I how many embryos we planned to transfer to which we each replied, "uhhhhhhhhhh."
After glancing over at one another, we simultaneously agreed aloud on, "1."
This is a conversation that the nurses and doctors all try to get couples to discuss at the beginning of IVF so that there is a mutual agreement by the time of transfer. Barry and I however, agreed long before even officially beginning IVF, that we would transfer 2, only to be told at our first consultation that because of my size, doctor Winslow would only feel comfortable transferring 1 at a time. His argument was that I don't seem to have too hard of a time getting pregnant (yea right), they just always implanted in the wrong place. That, and the smaller a women is, the higher the chance of complications with multiple gestations. Having been told this from day one, we've both been under the presumption that we were only going to transfer 1. So I can only assume that's why the number '1' slipped out of both of our mouths. Too bad we probably looked like we had never even given it a second thought though. I hate appearing unorganized or unprepared.
Part of me wants to give us the highest chance possible for a positive outcome this go around, so I want to transfer 2! But if my body isn't ready for pregnancy this time, it could very well reject both embryos and then we are out... The End. Game Over. If we just transfer 1 for right now and things don't work out this time, at least we can make whatever changes in protocol we need for the next time around, and we can try 1 more time. And just having that as an option could make a world of difference emotionally healing from a failed cycle and trying to move forward.
HOPEFULLY we won't have to worry about any of that though. But I'm glad we have a "backup plan" in place for ourselves. Even if it's more of just a "feel good plan" since I know it will probably be a couple of years until we could afford another transfer.
Any who.. the doctor told me to stay on the Estrace (3 in the morning and 3 more at night) every day. Tomorrow I will begin my morning/nightly dose of Progesterone Gel suppositories and my antibiotics to prevent me from catching anything during or after the transfer which is scheduled for next Wednesday May 20th at 1pm.
After the appointment we hit up chickfila for breakfast before returning to work.
While we were in line, I made the comment to Barry how I'd like to go get something really good to eat after the transfer. He agreed and also made mention that we should plan our first little outing as a family. He said,
"We should take the kids to chuckie cheese!!!! or maybe they're still a little too young. hmmm..."
I died.
Monday, May 11, 2015
Well, shit.
This happened today...
One of the reasons they have me on Estrace is to prevent me from ovulating..
It looks like my body has other plans.. As usual.
As far as my cycle goes, I have no idea what this means.
I've read that they will either cancel your cycle, or if they catch your ovulation early enough, they can convert your to a "natural cycle" which is where they will put your embryo back in the day that it would normally be entering the uterus anyways, the same as a medicated cycle, but I would end the Estrace and instead of using a progesterone supplement, I'd do the HCG trigger shot before the transfer.
The silver lining is that I'm not having any of my typical ovulation-type cramps that I have every month. So MAYBE my body just released an LH surge without releasing an egg.
Here's how it works:
An ovulation test doesn't test whether or not you've ovulated, just that your body is gearing up to ovulate. It shows that your body is producing an increased amount of the hormone, LH, which signals your ovaries to release an egg.
I won't know anything until I have an ultrasound.
I called my nurse about an hour ago and I'm still waiting on a call back.
Lets see if she think I'm lying again or calls my test "faulty" this time.
My test is 110% positive this go around.
UPDATE:
A new nurse called back, asked me at least 20 different, very specific questions about how I'm feeling, and told me that she'd discuss everything with my doctor and call me back shortly.
I'm a fucking wreck.. The hormone induced emotions that come along with IVF are completely exhausting and overwhelming. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't ready for all of this to be over.
Don't twist my words; I'm still more than grateful and blessed to have had the chance that most can't afford to be able to have a baby with the the help of science and modern medicine but I don't know how much more I can handle. I've been on a constant roller coaster for 3 months, and I'm ready to get off now.
UPDATE II:
Just as I suspected. If I ovulate, they will cancel my cycle.
For whatever reason, my doctor feels confident in letting me wait until my Thursday appointment to come in and confirm whether I did or didn't release an egg. I suppose I'll be riding those wings until then. Hopefully what I'm considering to be confidence isn't one single ounce of anything less.
I asked her if I would be expected to pay for the next cycle if this one didn't work out and she said she wasn't sure but she'd have someone in billing call me back.
So now you know what I know.
I'll update you tomorrow with a new test.... if I can brave taking anymore.
UPDATE III:
I just read that dehydration can cause a false positive ovulation test. I did have a couple of beers last night at MIL's house and didn't drink anything else when I got home before going to bed and I tested with my first pee of the day. That definitely eases my mind a little bit. I'm drinking TONS of water today and I'll test again later tonight and see what happens. If this test was truly positive, it would still be pretty dark tonight. Also, just realized I'm only on cycle day 10. Typically I don't get a positive until between cycle days 12-14. Cycle 10 would be pretty early, though it has happened before where I've ovulated really early. HOWEVER, my medicine should be preventing that from happening.
For now, I'm taking my husbands advice and not worrying about this. I'm handing all of my worries over to God and letting him carry them for me.
One of the reasons they have me on Estrace is to prevent me from ovulating..
It looks like my body has other plans.. As usual.
As far as my cycle goes, I have no idea what this means.
I've read that they will either cancel your cycle, or if they catch your ovulation early enough, they can convert your to a "natural cycle" which is where they will put your embryo back in the day that it would normally be entering the uterus anyways, the same as a medicated cycle, but I would end the Estrace and instead of using a progesterone supplement, I'd do the HCG trigger shot before the transfer.
The silver lining is that I'm not having any of my typical ovulation-type cramps that I have every month. So MAYBE my body just released an LH surge without releasing an egg.
Here's how it works:
An ovulation test doesn't test whether or not you've ovulated, just that your body is gearing up to ovulate. It shows that your body is producing an increased amount of the hormone, LH, which signals your ovaries to release an egg.
I won't know anything until I have an ultrasound.
I called my nurse about an hour ago and I'm still waiting on a call back.
Lets see if she think I'm lying again or calls my test "faulty" this time.
My test is 110% positive this go around.
UPDATE:
A new nurse called back, asked me at least 20 different, very specific questions about how I'm feeling, and told me that she'd discuss everything with my doctor and call me back shortly.
I'm a fucking wreck.. The hormone induced emotions that come along with IVF are completely exhausting and overwhelming. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't ready for all of this to be over.
Don't twist my words; I'm still more than grateful and blessed to have had the chance that most can't afford to be able to have a baby with the the help of science and modern medicine but I don't know how much more I can handle. I've been on a constant roller coaster for 3 months, and I'm ready to get off now.
UPDATE II:
Just as I suspected. If I ovulate, they will cancel my cycle.
For whatever reason, my doctor feels confident in letting me wait until my Thursday appointment to come in and confirm whether I did or didn't release an egg. I suppose I'll be riding those wings until then. Hopefully what I'm considering to be confidence isn't one single ounce of anything less.
I asked her if I would be expected to pay for the next cycle if this one didn't work out and she said she wasn't sure but she'd have someone in billing call me back.
So now you know what I know.
I'll update you tomorrow with a new test.... if I can brave taking anymore.
UPDATE III:
I just read that dehydration can cause a false positive ovulation test. I did have a couple of beers last night at MIL's house and didn't drink anything else when I got home before going to bed and I tested with my first pee of the day. That definitely eases my mind a little bit. I'm drinking TONS of water today and I'll test again later tonight and see what happens. If this test was truly positive, it would still be pretty dark tonight. Also, just realized I'm only on cycle day 10. Typically I don't get a positive until between cycle days 12-14. Cycle 10 would be pretty early, though it has happened before where I've ovulated really early. HOWEVER, my medicine should be preventing that from happening.
For now, I'm taking my husbands advice and not worrying about this. I'm handing all of my worries over to God and letting him carry them for me.
Wednesday, May 6, 2015
It's been a minute.
Forgive me for not having updated my blog in a while... all 4 or 5 followers, all of which are probably family members who know what going on anyways! ha!!
For those just passing through trying to learn as much about the process by other peoples own accounts of it like I did before embarking on my own IVF journey, here is an update to the FET.
I finished my birth control last Wednesday 5/6/15. I wasn;t suppose finish it until Friday, but it was literally turning me into an irrational, crazy bitch, and I couldn't take any more of it so I cut ties with it two days early.
Before you throw the book at me, know that my doctor was okay with me stopping at my last appointment (Monday 5/4); it was my nurses idea to keep me on it for an extra 4 days to insure I wouldn't ovulate.
But let me rewind a little. Friday, the 1st of May, I woke up with ovulation type pains and all of my other normal ovulation symptoms. Bewildered, I went on to take an ovulation test and to my surprise, the test line was quite dark.
The test was negative, because the first line needs to be as dark or darker than the second line to be positive but I was concerned at how dark it was being that I was on birth control. It should have been much lighter than that. So I called my nurse who insisted that it must have been a faulty test...
Well if the test was "faulty," explain to me then why it was even darker on Saturday morning!
So by now I'm freaking out thinking, "how the hell am I ovulating if I'm taking birth control pills?
Luckily, Sunday morning the line was lighter and continued to get lighter and ligher every day so I know I didn't. I just wish the nurse wouldn't have blown me off.. "Like I don't know what I'm talking about."
So... Anyways.. that's why the nurse wanted me to stay on birth control for a few more days.. At the end of my appointment she told me to call with the start of my period, to schedule what they refer to as a 'day 13 appointment' which is where you go in, they check your estrogen and progesterone, and also do an ultrasound to the check the lining of your uterus. Depending on the findings, they'll either up my estrogen dose or keep it the same, and I'll also begin taking my progesterone that day, and every day from them on until 10 weeks of pregnancy.
Currently, I am on day 5 of this cycle. My day 13 appointment is next Thursday, 5/14 and I believe my transfer will be on 5/19. That would give us a due date of about Feb 3rd. :) I have a feeling this month is going to fly by.
For those just passing through trying to learn as much about the process by other peoples own accounts of it like I did before embarking on my own IVF journey, here is an update to the FET.
I finished my birth control last Wednesday 5/6/15. I wasn;t suppose finish it until Friday, but it was literally turning me into an irrational, crazy bitch, and I couldn't take any more of it so I cut ties with it two days early.
Before you throw the book at me, know that my doctor was okay with me stopping at my last appointment (Monday 5/4); it was my nurses idea to keep me on it for an extra 4 days to insure I wouldn't ovulate.
But let me rewind a little. Friday, the 1st of May, I woke up with ovulation type pains and all of my other normal ovulation symptoms. Bewildered, I went on to take an ovulation test and to my surprise, the test line was quite dark.
Well if the test was "faulty," explain to me then why it was even darker on Saturday morning!
So by now I'm freaking out thinking, "how the hell am I ovulating if I'm taking birth control pills?
Luckily, Sunday morning the line was lighter and continued to get lighter and ligher every day so I know I didn't. I just wish the nurse wouldn't have blown me off.. "Like I don't know what I'm talking about."
So... Anyways.. that's why the nurse wanted me to stay on birth control for a few more days.. At the end of my appointment she told me to call with the start of my period, to schedule what they refer to as a 'day 13 appointment' which is where you go in, they check your estrogen and progesterone, and also do an ultrasound to the check the lining of your uterus. Depending on the findings, they'll either up my estrogen dose or keep it the same, and I'll also begin taking my progesterone that day, and every day from them on until 10 weeks of pregnancy.
Currently, I am on day 5 of this cycle. My day 13 appointment is next Thursday, 5/14 and I believe my transfer will be on 5/19. That would give us a due date of about Feb 3rd. :) I have a feeling this month is going to fly by.
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